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2010–2018 archives

I really go back and forth over whether these old talks should be up. I’ve taken them down because it was an old version of me but then I also still like a lot of the things said from that old version of me. In fact, I’d probably agree with a ton of it. I don’t want to be a pastor anymore but I never really did want to be a pastor. I was much more comfortable being aligned with a religion than I am not but even then, it’s funny how different people hear you when you say things in a church compared to when you say them out of it. (Because, I talked a lot about not being comfortable being aligned with a religion.)

Anyway… they’re back for now. Take what you will. Ignore what you want.

I’m sure I’ll take them down again soon. : )

Sorted chronologically by series · 268 talks

ingredients (to life) 2018

  1. drive. 01.07.2018
  2. awe. 01.14.2018
  3. space. 01.21.2018
  4. unity. 01.28.2018

parables redux 2017

  1. get lost 09.17.2017
  2. in a ditch 10.08.2017
  3. free your mind and the rest will follow 10.15.2017
  4. who is your master? 10.22.2017
  5. mystic seeds 10.29.2017
  6. small stories 11.12.2017
  7. more than time. 11.26.2017

james 2017

  1. pure joy 04.23.2017
  2. realities 04.30.2017
  3. get free 05.14.2017
  4. no favorites 05.21.2017
  5. work it 06.04.2017
  6. little things 07.16.2017
  7. good life's 07.23.2017
  8. the two wolves 07.30.2017
  9. we are earth 08.06.2017
  10. we all have lines 08.13.2017
  11. decluttering suffering 08.20.2017
  12. james & i 09.03.2017

listen to the darkness lent 2017

  1. nurses 03.12.2017
  2. principals 03.19.2017
  3. refugees 03.26.2017
  4. police 04.02.2017
  5. counselors 04.09.2017

what 2017

  1. yoga, sushi, and martinis 01.08.2017
  2. glass and ice changed the world 01.15.2017
  3. this is getting real 01.29.2017
  4. fear and love 02.05.2017
  5. complacement wealth 02.12.2017
  6. flexibility and strength 02.19.2017
  7. how do we know 02.26.2017
  8. heroes and mercy 07.03.2016
  9. sides. 07.10.2016
  10. not that story 07.24.2016
  11. the blind and lame 07.31.2016
  12. the magic box 08.07.2016
  13. that victory 08.21.2016
  14. at that table 08.28.2016
  15. that's not good 09.25.2016
  16. the more dangerous danger 10.02.2016
  17. what do you want? 10.09.2016
  18. victims 10.16.2016
  19. the advice 10.30.2016
  20. the critic ism 11.06.2016
  21. the prayer 11.20.2016

the big sins 2016

  1. who is ryan & the big sins 04.17.2016
  2. a lot, more, and a fence 04.24.2016
  3. the feminine perspective 05.08.2016
  4. lucky 05.15.2016
  5. st. rhino and shame 05.29.2016
  6. wormtongue and fear 06.05.2016
  7. yarn 06.12.2016

uncertainty lent 2016

  1. giving up belief. 02.14.2016
  2. uncertainty of god. 02.28.2016
  3. uncertainty of the bible. 03.06.2016
  4. uncertainty of miracles 03.20.2016

the hero’s journey 2016

  1. the hero's journey 01.03.2016
  2. the summons. 01.10.2016
  3. the wilderness. 01.17.2016
  4. the gift 01.31.2016
  5. the return. 02.07.2016

the prophets 2015

  1. the prophets. 09.20.2015
  2. hosea. 09.27.2015
  3. mercy 10.04.2015
  4. yep, mercy. 10.11.2015
  5. daath elohim. 10.18.2015
  6. amos 11.01.2015
  7. lights and blankets. 11.08.2015
  8. the wind and the sun. 11.15.2015
  9. micah. 11.22.2015
  10. john 07.12.2015
  11. feedback 07.19.2015
  12. light and dark 07.26.2015
  13. stop. listen. 08.02.2015
  14. more 08.09.2015
  15. the standard. 08.16.2015
  16. shredder. 08.30.2015

no series (series) 2015

  1. work? 04.19.2015
  2. questions 04.26.2015
  3. mom 05.10.2015
  4. corvairs, milk, planks. 05.17.2015
  5. stop 05.24.2015
  6. the flow 05.31.2015
  7. power 06.21.2015
  8. equality 07.05.2015

job lent 2015

  1. the land of uz 02.22.2015
  2. a friend 03.01.2015
  3. eliphaz 03.08.2015
  4. big and small 03.15.2015
  5. big 03.22.2015

acts 2015

  1. ho hum 01.04.2015
  2. a serial story 01.11.2015
  3. change 01.18.2015
  4. together 01.25.2015
  5. an idea and a wall 02.01.2015
  6. trouble 02.08.2015
  7. enough 02.15.2015

god’s love in buckets 2014

  1. buckets and love 09.14.2014
  2. maps 09.21.2014
  3. indulgent love 09.28.2014
  4. create 10.05.2014
  5. the real 10.12.2014
  6. no curses 10.19.2014
  7. a gift 10.26.2014
  8. seeing slices 11.02.2014
  9. love > 11.09.2014
  10. the score 11.16.2014
  11. grenades 11.23.2014
  12. half-full? 12.14.2014

jesus was a mystic 2014

  1. jesus was a mystic 05.11.2014
  2. gnats. 05.25.2014
  3. language 06.01.2014
  4. rocks and sand 06.15.2014
  5. the belief affect 06.22.2014
  6. empires and mystics 07.06.2014
  7. mountains 07.27.2014
  8. mystic forgiveness 08.10.2014
  9. sheep and goats 08.18.2014

atonement theories lent 2014

  1. theories. 03.09.2014
  2. solidarity. 03.16.2014
  3. the circle. 03.23.2014
  4. korea. 03.30.2014
  5. no scapegoats. 04.06.2014
  6. heroes 09.15.2013
  7. they are? 09.22.2013
  8. art and curses 09.29.2013
  9. boxes 10.06.2013
  10. why a king? 10.13.2013
  11. is there a plan? 10.20.2013
  12. a grace perspective 10.27.2013
  13. the mistake about mistakes 11.10.2013
  14. honey 11.17.2013
  15. the thing 11.24.2013
  16. what makes david, david? 01.12.2014
  17. what are you so afraid of? 01.19.2014
  18. give it up for jonathan 01.26.2014
  19. from nothing to something 02.02.2014
  20. mixed messages 02.09.2014
  21. the bad guys? 02.16.2014
  22. the medium 02.23.2014
  23. what did we learn? 03.02.2014

proverbs 2013

  1. proverbs: ways 05.26.2013
  2. proverbs: her 06.02.2013
  3. proverbs: eyes 06.09.2013
  4. proverbs: house 06.23.2013
  5. proverbs: folly 07.07.2013
  6. proverbs: earth 07.21.2013
  7. proverbs: strife 08.04.2013
  8. proverbs: wealth 08.11.2013
  9. proverbs: lips 08.18.2013
  10. proverbs: lord 08.25.2013
  11. proverbs: wisdom 09.01.2013

words 2013

  1. the word 04.14.2013
  2. is it christian? 04.21.2013
  3. deeper 04.28.2013
  4. saved 05.12.2013
  5. worship 05.19.2013

eccelsiastes lent 2013

  1. everything is meaningless 02.17.2013
  2. the island 02.24.2013
  3. time and chance 03.03.2013
  4. alive aware awake. now. 03.10.2013
  5. fear god. 03.17.2013
  6. a marinade of mystery 08.02.2013

what jesus doesn’t talk about 2012

  1. should i move to denver? 05.13.2012
  2. jesus doesn't talk about… sex. 06.10.2012
  3. god bless america? 07.01.2012
  4. homosexuality... 08.05.2012

john 2012-2013

  1. word and flesh. life and light. 01.08.2012
  2. recognize. 01.15.2012
  3. dangerous questions? 01.22.2012
  4. wine. tables. hmm. 01.29.2012
  5. born again 02.05.2012
  6. believe 02.12.2012
  7. eternal life: the baby 02.19.2012
  8. idiots weddings and wrath 02.26.2012
  9. will you give me a drink? 03.04.2012
  10. apple 03.18.2012
  11. tears, donkeys, and leaders 04.01.2012
  12. why? 04.08.2012
  13. signs 04.15.2012
  14. a man and his mat 04.22.2012
  15. vulnerability 05.20.2012
  16. whoa 06.17.2012
  17. in secret 07.08.2012
  18. what if it's me? 07.15.2012
  19. water 07.22.2012
  20. temple guards 07.29.2012
  21. where are they? 08.12.2012
  22. dark. light. 08.19.2012
  23. confirmation bias 09.02.2012
  24. the merge sign 09.23.2012
  25. obsession 09.30.2012
  26. sheep and stuff 10.07.2012
  27. a cost 10.14.2012
  28. storytime 10.21.2012
  29. desire, fear and politics 11.04.2012
  30. who am i 11.11.2012
  31. judgment, prince, and all 11.18.2012
  32. planes 11.25.2012
  33. greater things. 01.06.2013
  34. remain 01.20.2013
  35. as one 02.03.2013
  36. breakfast 04.07.2013

pharisees 2011

  1. soundtracks 09.18.2011
  2. sexuality 09.25.2011
  3. puffy vests and ski jackets 10.09.2011
  4. water, camels, and human rules 10.16.2011
  5. burdens, tassels, and baboons. 10.30.2011

habakkuk 2011

  1. why? what? where? god? 08.07.2011
  2. why? evil? god? 08.14.2011
  3. eventually? 08.21.2011
  4. woe 08.28.2011
  5. wonder and wait 09.04.2011

rest 2011

  1. a rest. 07.03.2011
  2. the creator stops. 07.10.2011
  3. a serious rhythm. 07.17.2011
  4. rest 07.31.2011

fire 2011

  1. god is fire. 06.05.2011
  2. what are you doing here? 06.12.2011
  3. hades 06.26.2011

wine 2011

  1. what i've learned from wine 05.15.2011
  2. new wine 05.22.2011
  3. water into wine 05.29.2011

parables 2011

  1. new wine 01.30.2011
  2. workers in the vineyard 02.27.2011
  3. wheat and weeds 03.27.2011
  4. a withered fig tree 04.17.2011
  5. the cafeteria 01.09.2011
  6. plant and water 01.16.2011
  7. krino 02.06.2011
  8. chocolates and bodies 02.13.2011
  9. static transformation 02.20.2011
  10. giving up... 03.13.2011
  11. stories of old 03.20.2011
  12. spirit. body. 04.03.2011
  13. love. period. 04.10.2011

genesis 2010

  1. in the beginning... 09.12.2010
  2. we lost our story 09.19.2010
  3. cain and abel 09.26.2010
  4. arky arky 10.03.2010
  5. scattered 10.10.2010
  6. ladders and wrestlers 10.24.2010
  7. words 11.28.2010

advent seasons 2010-2017

  1. matthew's jesus 12.05.2010
  2. mark's jesus 12.12.2010
  3. hope: reconciliation 08.02.2013
  4. hope: mystery 12.11.2011
  5. fear 12.02.2012
  6. shame 12.16.2012
  7. hate 12.23.2012
  8. advent empire 12.04.2016
  9. advent fear 12.19.2016
  10. live that story. 12.03.2017
  11. more magi 12.10.2017
  12. god concepts 12.17.2017

easter(s) 2011-2017

  1. more to the story 04.24.2011
  2. rise 03.31.2013
  3. those parts of the easter story 04.20.2014
  4. open the shades 04.05.2015
  5. the myth of easter. 03.27.2016
  6. the danger of easter 04.16.2017

selected random(s) 2010-2017

  1. the other lung 01.05.2014
  2. why church? 04.03.2016
  3. it had to change. 11.19.2017